Hence forth, step within my psychoanalysis

I haven't written. I don't really know why and the only excuse I can offer is that I forget. I know my excuse for not getting much of anything done for the past couple days is due to the ending of my childhood, aka the last Harry Potter book. Seriously, I cried. I cried because it was sad and I cried because it was over. If I ever have children, it's going to be required that they read every book and like it - or I'll disown them. If only I was joking about that.
Anyway, things in shauna-ville really haven't been all that interesting. Had two jobs for a while.. decided I didnt want to be anyone's bitch and quit one. I'm still Publix's bitch (but hey, I probably will be forever in some way-shape-or-form). I am going to get anohter job again, of course. I want to work at wachovia on the weekends. I count money all night for Publix so why not do it in the mornings on weekends for a bank? I'll probably get paid just as much, if not slightly more and I'm pretty positive it wont be too complicated.
No new boyfriend, no new interestes really. May have done a bad thing, not sure at this point. I'm leaning towards the "not so bad" considering I haven't thought about it and such. Who knows with me though.
Classes start again soon and I'm rather excited about it. Goal for this semester: socialization. New friends etc.
bored, bye.

You know I miss you.
Don't you know that I miss you?
Ninth and Ash on a Tuesday night.
I would write to you from a museum mile, toast to you:
your whisper, your smile.
Up the stairs at the Weatherford, a ghost each place I hide.
If you don't don't know, why would you say so?
Would you mean this please if it happens?
If you don't know, why would you say so?
Won't you get your story straight.
If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?
And I need this now more than I ever did.
If you don't well, honey, then you don't.
I left you waiting, at the least could we be friends?
Should have never started, ain't that the way it always ends?
On my life I'll try today, there's so much I've felt I should say, but.
Even if your heart would listen, doubt I could explain.
If you don't don't know, why'd you say so?
Would you mean this please if it happens?
If you don't know, why would you say so?
Won't you get your story straight.
If you don't know, honey, why'd you just say so?
Cause I need this now more than I ever did.
If you don't well, honey, then you don't.
So here we are now, a sip of wine a sip of water.
Someday maybe, maybe someday we'll be smarter.
And I'm sorry that I'm such a mess, I drank all my money could get

I finally got my MacBook. Her name is Isabella and I love her to pieces. It was time for a new computer. MightyMightyBoomerang was taking a turn for the very much worse so I went out and got this lovely contraption. I haven't had so much time to explore it but I'm sure I will tomorrow when I'm a little more awake.
For now, however, I'm watching The Holiday -- the best chic flic ever. Seriously. I could watch this movie over and over again. If you haven't seen it, I highly reccommend it.
I don't have to work tomorrow. I can't decide if I want to get up early and be productive from the start .. or sleep in and lounge and get things done as I feel like doing them. I have a ton of stuff that I'd really like to get done though...Including maybe heading to roswell for a couple minutes tomorrow evening. I need to E-mail the dad about that as well.
I didn't get to see Ryan tonight as planned. And it makes me mad that I'm sad that I couldn't see him. He's just a guy who I happen to be in class with and that happens to make me smile and that I just happen to make out with sometimes...and cuddle with etc. gah. wtf, Im not starting this shit again. NOPE. Not doing it. It hurts entirely too much for my liking. But I will say that I'm officially finished with that other one. He has hurt me too much and refuses to accept responsibility for it. He has completely changed from the man that I fell in love with. Love comes and love has gone - time to move on and do bigger, better things.
I'm sort of pumped to get a lot of school work done tomorrow. Maybe I'll head to the library.. Who knows. Anyway, list? I think so.

-Bathroom
-Room (DUST)
-Take Recycling to the recycling thingamathing
-Homework:
a.sociology reading/notes/vocabulary
b.type proposition for research paper (and take to campus to put in Austin's box)
c.global issues group project thing?
d.global issues paper
e.english reading
-nap
-Watch MIB
-Go to roswell
-RELAX

Not such a bad list.


Okay. Time for bed me thinks.

I abandoned LJ for a while. I'm not entirely sure why, but I think I'll start it back up again. I have needed to write, publically or toherwise, for a good while now and haven't. But, I guess today's the day.
SO. Second semester of college. Hoping I'll keep the hope (hardeeharhar). Fell in love too fast, too soon. Got my heart smashed. Annd two months later, trying to be on to something new. I haven't got any hopes for it because once again I'm going to be the girl who deosn't feel, who doesn't fall. Tough shit, I guess.
ANYWAY. Just a nice quick update to let everyone know I'm NOT DEAD.
love you

This is a plead for your favorite feel-good songs.
I don't want any songs cicling around being in love.
None circled around finding the one.
etc.
Just songs that make you feel good about yourself, inside and out.
Please?
I really, really need some positive music to channel through my brain right now.
<3

I have no idea when the last time I updated was. I do know, however, that so much has been going on that lj has been the last thing on my mind. I don't even want to get into all that has been going on in the past couple of weeks because I'm attempting to put it all behind me and move forward.

School this semester is proving to be a huge challenge. I've got my first exams next week.. errf. Lots of studying. Today was mostly wasted being upset and different things. I did, however, make a study guide for my socio exam on Monday.. It definitely should be expanded but I think the major concepts and such will do just fine. We shall see, yeah?

I don't have to work tomorrow night which will be super nice. But I work next Friday instead... That's not so great, esp since I have to cashier -_- I hate having to fill in spots because of people not being able to come in etc. Pisses me off. Oh well.

Uhmm.. So I have no idea really what to say these days. So. Yeah. Hi, I guess?



Shauna

My days have been long and filled with working, with a side of over emotinoal moodswings. mmm.

Today I meant to get up a lot earlier than I did, but for some reason my body thought it'd be cool to wake up at 5:30 and just chill out for a longass time before getting back to sleep, thus resulting not getting up until the 11th minute of the ghana/Brazil game (which can suck my imaginary left nut, by the way--but more on that in a minute.) So my whole day of soccer/working out/getting my tan back has been foiled. I watched the soccer part I and went to the gym but I didn't have time to lay out due to the spain/france game starting at 2:55. gah.

So. About that game. Ghana deserved to win. Period. Brazil was outplayed--the only thing that saved them was experience and a really fucking awesome goalie. Their oh-so-wonderful defense was somewhere sticking their thumbs up their asses. As much as I love brazil and would love to see them take it again--Ghana just deserved it. The ref's need to forget where their cards are let them play the damn game. I don't think there was two consecutive minutes of play that a foul wasnt called. Bitches, I say. Oh well, Ghana is going home, but next world cup--they're going to dominate. If they can out play Brazil--man oh man, lookout world. There's a new powerhouse of soccer being born.

I need to do the dishes, fold my laundry, and do a general clean up of my room. Last night I was searching for something so a lot of things are misplaced. Not good.

I still feel incredibly cowish. Gah. I haet being a girl. Fuck having a vagina. I want to be able to piss standing up and not have to worry about looking thin and wonderful. Fucking hell.

You know, I'm going to say this for the last time: If you have a problem with me, tell me. Let's not do things such as write livejournal entries directed towards me, then take off the commenting option. If you want me to change, you need to let me know when I'm doing wrong. Period. How do people expect others to grow and change if that person is never told what they need to change? It's ridiculous. Yeah, I'm opinionated. Yeah, I'll make sure you know my opinion. Yeah, I'll tell you you're ridiculous if I know I'm right. It's how it goes sometimes. Let's remember that no one is perfect, shall we? If you have a problem with me, come and talk to me about it.
On another note, today was relatively boring. I got up early-ish and did some homework. I then went to the gym which kicked my ass and then went to the pool where I say my brother. I've got a wonderful splotchy sunburn which can be solved with a bit of aloe :) I like having my aloe plants -- pure aloe makes everything better.
My dad left sometime while I was at the pool and has yet to return/call. He is never allowed to get onto me for not calling every hour anymore. heh. oh well.
Oh, Happy Easter everyone :) Hope you all had a good one. If you see the Easter Bunny, send him Sid's way. He's got beef with the rabbit. And I need a new earflap hat.. heh.
Here's to not letting anyone or anything get to me anymore. Letting things go has been the best decision of my life. Here's to knowing who matters and who does not.
Oh nuts, I've still got Trig. homework.. hm. Oh speaking of school! I figured out the riddle from Econ and I am PUMPED about it. Ohhh yes.
Field trip tomorrow--good fun with the APES kids. Only six weeks until graduation now! :O how exciting!
Well I think I'm going to go and spruce up the apartment before king dad gets home.


Goodnight my loves :)

I've got an incredible amount of homework to do. Of course, I'm putting it off until tomorrow. I did a lot of things today. Everything on my to-do list, actually. I was going to reward myself by having a fantastic bubble bath but I am not so much in the mood anymore.
I can't believe that Spring Break 06 is nearing it's end. It's been good. However, the sooner we go back, the sooner it's over with. Yep. six weeks until graduation my loves. Six weeks indeed.
I want to start working ASAP. 25 hours at work means 2 hours I'm not at home. And I'm getting paid for it. Hell yeah.
I'm hungry. I didn't eat dinner due to certain events. Waiting for him to go to bed. hm.
I need to work on my bag a ton tonigt. I really want that thing done. It wont do itself though, sadly.
It got really cold out. no good.
And this is where my update ends. Sorry guys. Bad mood = lame update.
maybe ill give it another go, later.

My name is shauna and I am updating my lj from the apple store at north point. on a MacBook Pro. yummmmm.

I named my ipod arnold.


I hope everyone had a fantastic holiday.
And just for ben:
HAPPY HANNUKAH DAHLING! MWAH! (and btw. you are on my ipod! you ought to feel special :))